Author: hmcreativelady (Page 47 of 48)

Today I ended up in gaol

Rain and thunder were forecast today. There was no coffee morning to go to so, after my conversation with Neal, the vicar of St Hilda’s Warley, about his time as chaplain at Wakefield cathedral I decided to hop on a train and head for Wakefield.

Today I visited Wakefield. I don’t think I’ve ever been there before but it features in my family history since my great, great, great, great grandfather was incarcerated in what is now England’s most secure prison. He was the guest of her majesty Queen Victoria on two separate occasions. He was also buried at Wakefield All Saints church which is now a cathedral and has recently undergone a huge face-lift. It has Saxon origins and during the refurbishment skeletal remains were found that were carbon dated to around 900 AD. The medieval rood screen still survives. There’s a strong music school and choral department in the crypt!

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This looks fun

So stop number one was the cathedral where, having explained why I  was there,  a docent, Richard York,  took up my case with gusto. While I had lunch  – yeh, for the baked potato – he went in search of church archives, and wandered around outside in the pouring rain trying to decipher the horizontal gravestones that now make up the path into the church.

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Richard, the helpful docent

No luck, but I gave him my business card in case he unearthed anything  in the future.   It turned out that his dad had exactly the same business card! Richard had been brought up, literally, at Bretton Hall (a college for the arts). I remember having a conversation over dinner at a  piano conference with Jane Bastien (piano pedagogue extraordinaire) about her going to give a presentation at Bretton Hall years and years ago. His father had worked there, surrounded by 23 pianos including 4 Steinways. my school friend Hilary Markland had gone there from Bolton School. Richard mentioned Keith Swallow whose name I recalled. Richard collects archival recordings, over 3000 of them, and his all-time favorite is the Bach/Busoni Chaconne in d minor which is my favorite piece that Keith performs.  A very elegant lady, Jill,  joined us , a would-be docent that Richard knows well and both of them knew Ramsbottom, Tottington and Rawtenstall (all close to my native village).I think she ‘was’ somebody, bedecked in pearls and very, very elegant. When I asked if I could take their photographs for my journal Jill was the only person on the trip who answered ‘No.’ Richard related the story of his trip to the US taking in King City and Las Vegas. Describing driving in those areas he said ‘You just sit there, hold the steering wheel, and don’t turn it for two hours! That’s not driving!’

 

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The newly restored Nave, Wakefield cathedral

The barista at the cathedral recommended the Six Chimneys for watching the vital England v Wales  UEFA cup game and I was thrilled to get the reactions of the assembled crowd on video as England scored the winning goal after being 0-1 down. I consumed my first pint bitter shandy of the trip.

A quick peek in at the Hepworth Gallery, dedicated to the work of sculptress Barbara Hepworth (free

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Sculptures by Hepworth

admission, and a free bus to get there from Wakefield center, though I walked it) and then off to take photos of the gaol.

I looked around carefully for ‘No photography’ signs but couldn’t see any so I began taking photos of the entrance. Within 30 seconds a prison guard came running out demanding my cell phone! As I explained that there was nothing to say I couldn’t she shepherded me into the prison itself. Yeah! Just what I’d hoped for , but not quite in this way. Explaining myself to another guard he told me it was fine to take photos from across the street, which I duly did. The prison is mainly Victorian, though parts date back to the 1500’s. There’s a mulberry tree in the center of the exercise yard and legend has it that this accounts for the nursery song Her We Go Round the Mulberry Bush.

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Wakefield’s top security gaol

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The door I entered!

I’m all talked out

My goodness what a day! I left at 9, deciding to risk not wearing my raincoat. The half hour bus ride  to Halifax was quite eventful. Me to bus driver, ” I’d like a weekly Rover’s ticket, please.” Driver, incredulous, ” What??” Me – repeat the question. Driver, “Oh, bloody hell. Just ger on and sit yerself down.” I did. Halfway to Halifax the bus was stopped at a bus stop when we were side swiped by a lorry. No-one hurt. Everyone just got off quietly and waited for the next bus. I, of course, didn’t have a ticket. Ah, what fun. And so on to Halifax bus station, where I boarded another bus to Pellon Lane. I’d been told to ask for Pellon social club. I did and asked the driver the price of the ticket,  $1.90 I was told. I handed over a $10 note. What’s that? asked the driver. My fare, I suggested. Well I don’t have any change – just ger on. This is an excellent way to travel. I should try it again 🙂

Arriving at Christ Church Mt Pellon I was welcomed by the parishioners enjoying their coffee, tea,  biscuits and cakes. I discovered that only the area directly around the church is called Mt Pellon. Pellon Lane is a long road, primarily an industrial mess now sprinkled between stone terraces housing  primarily Muslims, with great food and clothing stores. I stayed for the service which was accompanied by an amazingly out of tune organ.   I chatted to the organist and while she went off for tea I was able to play. I even found a copy of my favorite Bach Preludes and Fugues! I  then wandered into the graveyard to find IMG_4689-3my great grandfather, Ishmael Nutton (1835-1876) and his wife Elizabeth Ann Leeming. I found his gravestone easily, though it was well covered with moss. He had died at aged 40from alpaca poisoning. Was it of any significance that his was the only grave sporting an empty beer can? I wondered.IMG_4699

As we all left one of the gentlemen offered to show me round the area. I thought that meant a short stroll around the village but he ended up taking me on a car tour of the area taking me anywhere I wanted to go and stopping at any place I thought would be a good photo opportunity.  He was a wealth of information, and took me to see the reconstructed gibbet in Halifax that I had read about last night. Halifax was the last place in England to use this form of execution. The practice was retained to protect the cloth trade. The first person to be executed here was John of Dalton in 1286 and the last execution took place on April 30, 1650. I asked to go to Warley town so I could find The

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The Halifax gibbett

Grange where Patrick Brontë had lived before he moved to Haworth, and then we leisurely drove to Southowram so I could see the house which was where Emily Brontë was governess for 6 months. IMG_4788

I offered to buy him lunch at the Maypole in Warley Town – very posh. His nephew is a prominent makeup artist and regularly does make-up shoots for David Beckham and Barbara Windsor. He’d worked in construction and had worked on building Haley Court, the high rise flats built in 1966 that my great Aunt Lil had lived in. I had a black pudding salad and passion fruit cider from New Zealand – which turned out to be the only black pudding I had on the trip.

He dropped me off at St John’s, Warley, where coffee and conversation was in full swing. There I met someone who was brought up in Entwistle, at Wayoh Farm. She been married at Turton church in 1954. Another lady had visited to Soquel, a village just outside Santa Cruz.  Neal, the vicar, had

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Neal, the vicar at St John’s, Warley

motorbiked across the U.S. a few years ago with his wife. He mentioned he was from Wakefield so I asked if there was any way I could get into Wakefield Prison. It turned out that he’d been the chaplain there before becoming vicar at St John’s and St Hilda’s. Since it’s a top security prison now he doubted I could gain access but he did tell me where I could get the best views of the prison from  – the platform of the railway station. He also explained which buildings would have been there when George Gledhill ( my great, great, great, great grandfather) was imprisoned there. Margaret offered to drive me back to Hebden Bridge.

For a few moment in the evening the sun came out for the first time. I dashed out to take these two photos from outside my mill.

A few random notes for the day.

  1. The woman who won the Great British Bake Off made the Queen’s 90th birthday cake.
  2. Underdwellings are a peculiarity of housing found only (?) in Hebden Bridge. It’s when one house is built above another, the hillside being so steep that the top house faces one street and the bottom house faces a different street. The only other place I’ve seen this is in Virginia City, Nevada.

 

Making friends

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As I stepped out of my mill this morning I observed a cat, highly excited by the recycling tray at our front door. On further inspection the cat was after a lovely little mouse who was delighted to pose for a photograph!

I actually set my alarm for 8:15 this morning because I needed to catch the train to Sowerby Bridge to be in time for the coffee morning at Christ Church.  It was less than five minutes’ walk to the railway station, first walking along the canal towpath and then through Calder homes Park.  As I waited for it to arrive I went into the waiting room at Hebden Bridge and there was – a piano, just waiting to be played upon. There was even music on it – Wachet Auf and When I an Laid in Earth. I just went to see Dido and Aeneas at UCSC opera last weekend. There’s a cafe too, right on the platform, that serves bacon butties. Note to self: must try one. Ed. never did 🙁  The return ticket was two pounds ninety. I break off writing this to see the BBC news reporting a mass shooting in Orlando, riots  at the UEFA soccer in Paris and a stabbing in Paris.

Reconnected with Peter, the friendly churchwarden at Christ Church Sowerby Bridge, who had arranged for me to play the organ there last year. Only two people were there when I arrived but  we were soon joined others and I got a wonderfully warm welcome.  This place is very special to me since  so many of my ancestor were baptized and married here.  I joined the coffee morning and was welcomed with open arms. The church was rebuilt in 1821 and reopened on May 24th of that year – my birthday. Only the communion table is left from the Old Brig Chapel. It’s dated 1520 so my ancestors would have communion table sowerby bridgeknown it. I met the vivacious pastor, Angela Dick, who has been there for 6 years. I decided not to stay for the service and so people recommended that I try Gabriel’s cafe at The Moorings for lunch. It was delightful, and is located in the old lock keeper’s cottage. I ordered a jacket potato with cheese, something I’d been looking forward to as being quintessentially English, so imagine my disappointment when my server came back a few minutes later to say they were all out of potatoes. This is Yorkshire – not Ireland in the 1840’s.  I settled for a cheese and pickle sarni, and as I ate I consulted my bus route map and realised that I could get to Triangle quite easily. Meanwhile it was pouring down outside –  good weather for ducks, and there were lots of them, mostly with babies. I walked along the canal for a while, taking photos of the rain. The British couldn’t understand that at all, but in California we’ve had little rain in the last 5 years.

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So on to Triangle, where Isabella Acornley , my great, great, great aunt was born in 1837. It was a tiny village outside Halifax. She had eventually ended up living in a

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1851 census showing Isabella Acornley, my gt, gt, gt, aunt born in Triangle Yorkshire in 1837. Aged 13 she is a power loom weaver in Edgworth

weaver’s  cottage in Mt Pleasant in Edgworth, across from The Black Bull,  and Rachel had visited it last year. I found a bus stop and asked the young man if he knew Triangle.

He did. He told me where to get off  the bus – and be sure to visit the cricket club! When you look up Triangle on Wikipedia the photo is of the cricket club! The only pub – the Triangle,  duh- is closed.There’s a town meeting planned to discuss its future. I would have gone but only residents of Triangle were invited. Two lorries hit it in quick succession and made it unstable. but what was this? The door seemed to be slightly ajar. I gave it a little tug and as my eyes adjusted to the dark interior I could make out the bar, seating, even glasses hanging above the bar. Just like a Nevada ghost town. At that moment I glimpsed a fluorescent object moving at speed towards me, and I beat a hasty retreat as a workman banged the door shut. I was disappointed that I hadn’t been quicker with my camera.

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The Triangle pub – closed forever?

Meanwhile the cricket club is the only hostelry in town. Pubs in England serve quite a different function from pubs in the US. Here they are a place for business meetings, general conversations, and a one time they had books when people couldn’t afford to purchase their own. As I looked around me  I realised that the landscape surrounding me was akin to that of Edgworth: steep green hills, scattered stone terraced houses. The fast cars on the narrow country road were frightening, especially after finding out that the two lorries had crashed into the pub – a much larger object than little me. I noticed a sign a Bed and Breakfast establishment which, judging from the gatepost, promised to be an imposing building, so I gladly turned off the scary road and walked down the imposing driveway lined with flowering rhododendrons. The house, Thorpe House, had been built in 1804 by a  mill owning family, and is currently run by three sisters, descendants of the mill

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Thorpe House – now and B and B

owners.  It was seventy five pounds a night for B and B. It had been home to Arnold Williams, Liberal MP for Sowerby in the 1920s, and during World War II served as officers’ quarters for the Royal Engineers, after which it lay empty for 12 years. In 1957, the mansion’s dilapidated and run-down state was repaired and it was converted into a home for elderly people, which it remained until 1994 when it was closed down as a retirement home. I managed to find a short movie about it:

http://www.channel4.com/programmes/four-in-a-bed/on-demand/58915-037.

Thorpe Mill, on the river,  was just below the house. Following the bus stop guy’s recommendation I ventured down a narrow, very steep path, expecting to arrive at the club house of the cricket ground. Instead, I found myself confronted by a large gate through which I could get a full view of the immaculate cricket ground. As I peered through the gates a lady drove up with her excitable dog who were out for their daily walk in spite of the pouring rain and she chatted as she showed me a more interesting way back into town, one that would not only give me a bird’s eye view of the cricket ground, but one that required me to do my mountain goat impression – the first of many in the next month.

 

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Sarah and friend – my walking companions in Triangle

It was a good job I’d got my hiking boots on. In fact, they became my default footwear for the next month. The trail was steep and very muddy but we got into a good conversation as we walked back into Sowerby Bridge. She’d attended Manchester uni and currently runs a storage company in Hebden Bridge which came within 4 inches of being flooded. Can you imagine that? Putting all your precious possessions into a storage unit that gets washed away? The businesses on either side of her were washed away. Her husband works for Calderdale Authority and is currently in China promoting tourism in Calderdale to the Chinese.

Back in Sowerby Bridge a train was just arriving and within a few minutes I was back in Hebden Bridge where I caught glimpses of the sun for the first time since arriving in England. I stopped off at the cafe in the park on my walk back t’th’ mill and enjoyed a proper cup of tea – that means sitting down. I’d been on the go for 5 hours, non-stop. After a short nap I popped out to the Co-op for an Indian take-out, delicious. The evening was passed at the Hebden Bridge Picture House seeing Tom Hiddleston in ‘I saw the light.’ I’m not a country music fan but I am a Tom Hiddleston fan, but the film didn’t move me. I though it rather quaint that it was cash only, and they served glasses of wine, and mugs of tea and coffee – none of this paper nonsense.

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Coffee morning at Christ Church, Sowerby Bridge with vicar Angela Dick

As usual I did quite well with the jet-lag, being so excited about being in England that I hardly was aware of the 8 hour time difference.  I woke up at 1 a.m. Then again at 3 a.m. and finally at 10:15 a.m! My new address is Hebble End. Hebble means a plank bridge. So Salterhebble, which I intend to visit was built by a man who dealt in salts and dye wares. See HebdenBridgehistory.org.uk. Note to self: History society meets alternate Wednesdays in the Methodist church hall.

A day of two halves – the first exploring my immediate environment of Hebden Bridge and the second taking a bus trip to Halifax. Walking along the canal into the center of the town – all of five minutes – was very pretty, even in the pouring rain. When I reached the shops it soon became apparent that the devastating flood here on Dec 26, 2015, was still having a major impact on life here. Lloyds bank had a temporary floor and the whole building was covered in scaffolding. My two possible pin numbers didn’t work and so they were going to have to send me a new pin number by snail mail. Really??  (In the end it took one day short of 4 weeks to obtain one!!) Each block had major reconstruction going on. The library basement is still out of bounds. I wonder if they were able to salvage documents.The flood must have brought a lot of work to the town. Every block had hammering and other construction noises issuing from the dark interiors. Sand bags were still strewn around the streets.

Paying with my credit card, despite its chip and pin still required the checkout guy at the Coop to ask for my ID! I had a cup of coffee outdoors, the only problem being the constant drop of wet blossoms into my cappuccino. Things are looking up in England. When I asked for a decaf cappuccino the barista didn’t bat an eyelid. The bookstore (with its marker at my head height showing the height of the flood waters) had a new Bill Bryson and a new Karl Pilkington book. I picked up as many brochures as possible from the Information Bureau.

Next stop was the Co-op to gather essentials such as food and shampoo.  Failing miserably to prise the top off the soup I had just bought for lunch I was reduced to eating a sausage roll and a piece of caramel shortbread. I was flagging by this time so I took a nap. Not bad considering yesterday’s 24 journey and 8 hours of jet-lag. Waking up – what to do?  I looked out of the window onto the canal: good weather for ducks. It was pouring down so  I caught the bus to Halifax which gave me a chance to sit down for half an hour and watch the scenery pass me by. Donkeys, sheep and the occasional cow peered serenely as the bus careered at a break-neck speed through winding streets lined with parked cars. I visited Halifax Minster were many of my ancestors were baptized and  married. I passed the end of Gaol Lane and Black Ledge where family members had once lived.

I took a walk down to Halifax minster, but as I suspected it was closed. My plan was to get back to HB for a quick dinner before going to the HB Picure house, 2 minutes away from ‘my’ mill but I was thwarted when the next bus bak wasn’t for 45 minutes. OK, I thought, no problem, I’ll just eat in Halifax. No way! By 5 p.m. the whole place was closed up – a veritable ghost town. so I went back t’th’mill, heated up my shepherd’s pie from the Co-op and at 8:40 headed back into town.  I ended the day sitting at The Old Gate again, simply because it was the only familiar place in town, this time sipping Old Goat cider. It was much quieter tonight. They have 40 ales and ciders on  tap so I had some cider samples and ordered their  Old Goat cider – a perfect accompaniment for writing my journal for an hour or so.

Arrival

June 12

So here I am tucked up in bed in a former dye mill, stone built in the 1800’s. It’s fitting that I’m spending a month living in a renovated mill since the ancestors that I’m researching were all woollen workers – first of all in the home and later, with the onflux of the Industrial Revolution in the mills themselves. My great great grandfather, Ishmael Nutton died at the age of 39 leaving a wife and three young children.   The cause of death given on the death certificate is ‘Blood poisoning from sorting Alpaca wool. Exhaustion.’ Apparently the fibers of the alpaca were much finer than sheep’s wool and could be inhaled by the workers, causing abrasions to the lungs, rather like the results of exposer to asbestos. To avoid the problem workers were told to grow long mustaches to filter the fine hairs and prevent them from being inhaled!

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My room

It’s been an eventful two days of travel. I set off from home at 8 a.m. on Saturday. Alice had offered to drive me to SFO. I changed planes in Toronto – the ipad airport!  – and landed in Manchester where it was trying – desperately – to rain. Thwarted in my search for a toasted tea cake I settled for a paper cup of tea from Greggs while I reassembled my bags. My ‘carry-on’ roller bag had been deemed not carry-on-able by Air Canada so I’d had to have it stowed. We were eventually reunited in Manchester but I must admit I was concerned about the fate of my lap-top and my other “essentials.” I mean, that’s why I’d chosen to put them into my carry-on, so that they would remain in sight at all times.

With the wonderful help of a Welsh information desk clerk and a young Indian who ran the check-out at W. H. Smith’s within 45 minutes they had figured out how to insert a new Sim card into my phone. I told them they both deserved extra Brownie points.

At the rail terminal it took longer to be issued with a train ticket to Hebden Bridge than it had done to get through security. Unfortunately I had to change stations in Manchester, a hassle I’d done with Rachel last year. I had no problems finding willing guys to help with my bags whenever I needed a strong arm. All I just needed to do was ask.  And I feel that that’s what I’ve been doing all day – something that I’m always reticent to do at home, but it’s certainly paid off today.

Manchester was packed with Parklife Fest teens many of whom were wearing very little at all – and carrying open bottles of wine and beer on the Metro-link and the trains.I chatted to a group of girls who were squashed against me like sardines in a can. I was told it was Parklife-2015-920x515-735x400“all ‘appnin’ ” at Heaton Park. 70,000 fans were expected during the weekend causing disruption to public transport.

I had intended walking from the railway station to Canal Works but soon realized that a combination of cobble stones, mud and puddles were not conducive for rolling two roller bags for half a mile, so I called for a taxi. But the driver couldn’t find Hebble End so I called Paula and she arrived, brolly beclad, to collect me from that bastion of British consumerism, the Co-op. It was a walk of one minute along the canal tow path to my new home. There I met with Chris and Paula and the arrangements were explained to me over a welcoming cup of Yorkshire tea. Within 20 minutes they were offereing to do a house exchange with me! The room that I had signed up to rent through AirBnB was in Paula and Beccie’s apartment but their next door neighbour, Chris,  had offered to house me since I was staying for a whole month. The major differences were that  my room in Chris’s apartment didn’t have a window, and there was no TV in my room, but I did have my own bathroom.

After unpacking I took a walk in the rain along the tow path   directly outside the factory. It was slippery and muddy underfoot. I passed several families of ducks and geese with young duckling and  goslings. There was even a blue heron. It was very quiet in a relaxing sort of way – Andante tranquillo. I passed a few other people, walking in the rain on this late Sunday afternoon. The only worries I had were 1. My battery would fail on my iphone and 2. I’d slip on the muddy cobbles and fall into the canal.

Stubbings Wharf pub was already buzzing and when I went in to peruse the menu I found it was already fully booked for the evening, even though it was only 5:15. So for dinner Paula recommended the Old Gate pub which was very much alive and kicking. Until the disastrous flood on Boxing Day 2015 there were 10 pubs in town – far fewer now: tug boats are still dredging the canal. I was looking for somewhere quiet where I could possibly find a dark nook hidden away and write my journal and eat some delicious food. By no means can this  spot be described as quiet but I find that rhubarb cider is delicious and is excellent when combined with a ‘Fish Butty and Chips.’

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View from the tow path

If I stop for a moment to contemplate it all feels a bit surreal but I’ve always found that   – with a combination of jet-lag and a return to my old culture. The Queen’s 90th birthday celebrations on TV make a stark contrast to the biggest mass shooting in U.S history today in Florida.

Packing

June 10

Packing, unpacking, repacking, checking and double checkinpackingg, not to mention checking in! Just about ready to check out now. All this with the help and enthusiasm of Sarah by my side who somehow managed to make the whole thing fun 🙂

On the Ancestry front I had a wonderful email this morning from Marion,  a lady who lives in Burnley – 15 miles away from Hebden Bridge. She is related to Sarah Mortimer, my 5th great grandmother (1740-1782) through her husband’s family. Sarah and her husband, my 5th great grandfather, John Barraclough, were contemporaries of Mozart. Marion agrees that we should meet and do some visiting of our ancestors together. I hope that happens.

I’ve been unable to find out information about gaining access to Wakefield Prison where my great great grandfather, George Gledill, 1837-1889, was held courtesy of Her Majesty Queen Victoria for some years. It’s now England’s  top security prison and was originally built in 1594 and now houses a large number of murderers and sex offenders which has led it to be nick-named the Monster Mansion.  Charles Bronson is currently secured there. A Mulberry tree in the exercise yard has been linked to the song, ‘Here we go round the mulberry bush.’

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Passion flower in my garden today

Last day of teaching for 7 weeks!

June 9

The day began with an early morning hike along Rio del Mar beach with a Meetup group. At my house the fog was in. Half a mile away on Mission street it was brilliant sunshine but as I drove along Highway 1 south towards Aptos I reached a dense fog bank, and the rain was drizzling. It’s 10 miles to Rio del Mar. I think nothing of that drive and treat it as a mere hop, skip and a jump. There’s no let up in the houses lining the freeway and so Capitola, Soquel, Aptos become merely  an extension of the city of Santa Cruz. As I drove I thought about the number of villages that I would pass in 10 miles  of driving in any direction from Hebden Bridge, each village having its own distinctive character, its own market day, its own church with its coffee mornings, lunches, Mothers’ Union. And each village separated by rolling green hills speckled with sheep.

Although this was my final day of teaching for seven weeks and I had to give  last minute pep talks to  my students who will take their National Guild piano exams next week I found it difficult to concentrate. Instead of seeing fingers playing F major scales minus their B flats I was seeing the menu in the Pack Horse at Affetside, and wondering if Turton Church would be open to step inside for a few quiet minutes. My parents got married there. I was baptized there and married there too, and I know my daughters have often dreamed of getting married there themselves.

Getting back home I began to think about packing for my trip, but first I have to do some laundry!

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Where in England?

I’m going to be staying in an Airbnb in Hebden Bridge for the first 4 weeks. It’s in Yorkshire – up north (you have to get the accent right to say that proper!)2 excellent  BBC series were recently filmed there-Last Tango in Halifax, and Happy Valley. Both are available on Netflix and I highly recommend them.  Last Tango actually used my old high school for many of the scenes. I pretty well jumped out of my seat where I saw it appear on the screen. I was there from age 11-18 and spent many an unhappy hour in the headmistress’s study.

Preparations

June 8

I’ve decided to take a chance and temporarily jump ship, so to speak, from the life I’ve fashioned for myself. Most of us, I suppose, have had at one time or another the impulse to leave behind our daily routines and responsibilities and seek out, temporarily, a new life. That daydream  has always retreated from me in the face of reality.  But I’ve had a feeling for a while now, as a turn a milestone,  that here  is a new phase of life, one that I need to embrace, no matter how full of doubts I may be filled with right now.  My daughters have   graduated from college and  are embarking on  new adult lives of their own. A voice inside my head calls me with  insistence, if I dare to listen to it, Hey, you there! you  need to get back to the narrative of your own life. Perhaps if I travel by myself to somewhere unfamiliar where all the labels that define me, both to myself and others are be absent, I could explore a new me.  But I wonder about my capacity to be a woman in a place without and identity, without friends. Alone of seven weeks? I have fallen into habit, quite naturally I believe, of defining myself in terms of who I am to other people-I am what others expect me to be -a daughter,   wife, mother, teacher, mentor, friend, critic. I’d like to stand back from these roles and make the acquaintance of that new person who emerges.

Now, how many reasons can I think of why I shouldn’t do it? What about my house? Who’s going to feed Tilly? I won’t be generating any income-yikes!  Suppose I get sick in some strange place. What if I disappear off the face of the planet? The response from friends has been unanimous. In fact, over the past few months as I’ve wrestled with this dichotomy on hikes through the redwoods, along the coastal buffs and along the beaches of Santa Cruz, in hurried intermissions at concerts and leisurely dinners I’ve come to see who my friends truly are. Go, they say, your children are grown, and Anthony can look after the cat. Some of them tell me in hushed voices that  they are secretly envious of my independence.

In planning the adventure some kind of cultural connection with the place I selected was of vital importance and this was easy to find. I would immerse myself in the place of my father’s mother’s family. Since beginning to research my family’s history seven years ago I’ve visited many places connected with my family. But on short visits with my daughters we had time for little more than finding a little moorland village in Lancashire, jumping out of the car to take a photo of the stunningly beautiful church, or take a quick picnic in the local cemetery (yes, one of our favorite pastimes!) or grab a half a shandy and a bag of cheese and onion crisps in the local hostelry. With seven weeks I wanted to  wake up to the views my great, great, great grandparents had from their kitchen window, touch the font where 5 generations ago my relatives were baptized and then climb the hill above the village to look down on that church, a view that may not have changed during the last 600 years. Someone recently asked if I was going to England to see members of my family. Only the dead ones, I replied!

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